Seriously?
The fact that what you described above as a "good shoot" could have led to prison, job loss or, at a minimum, significant loss of reputation. That's what we fear in law enforcement.
The second guessing is beyond over the top these days. The Jacob Blake shooting is a perfect example. I can't tell you how many times I've heard...
"Why didn't they just tase him instead?" They did tase him.
"Why didn't they just fight him?" They did fight him.
"Why did they have to shoot him just because he went into his car?" Because there was a knife, and possibly other weapons, in his vehicle.
"Why did they shoot him in the back?" Because his back was facing the police officer as he was arming himself...at the very least that is what the officer believed and that belief was entirely reasonable.
That's the sort of thing I'm complaining about. If I die on this job, that's more acceptable than this other bullshit. That other bullshit is coming from the very people we intend to protect and that stab in the back is entirely unacceptable.